I am really struggling to function right now. I miss you and I have no motivation to do anything. My birthday is a week away and I can't believe you're not here to share it with me. I watched my first awards show the other night without you. I missed being able to talk to you about the gowns and couldn't stop thinking about all the fun we used to have watching them. We would call each other a hundred times to talk about the dresses. I feel very lost right now and I just miss you and dad so much. I feel absolutely broken.